The Self-gazing of a Mother
I started this project in 2015 and it is still ongoing. It talks about the identity of a mother of twins and the relationship between the mother and children.
When my twins went to kindergarten at the age of 3, I was anxious about being separated. After dropping them off at school, I went back home and scrolled through photos of them on a computer for a long time. I was shocked by my reaction and this made me turn the camera to myself. In this, I explored the contradiction of a mother wanting independence and intimacy at the same time.
媽媽的自我凝視
媽媽的時間片段而匆忙,孩子的時間漫長且揮霍。媽媽要看守著兩個孩子,又凝向外面的世界,甚至心已飄向遠方。
隨著孩子慢慢長大,媽媽的角色也跟著轉變,雙胞胎開始可以相互陪伴,發展屬於他倆的通關密語及特殊玩法。孩子依然需要媽媽在身邊,但這時媽媽的目光不再定睛於孩子身上。之前,媽媽的相機內只有孩子的身影,現在,鏡頭轉向自己,探索媽媽想要擁有獨立自我又想與孩子親密連結的矛盾感受。